I had no idea that you lived like this :( *big hugs* I can't even begin to imagine what it feels like. Even though you have a difficult time, you still continue to live. That, my dear, means you are a strong young woman :)

u are going to be alright. U have people that love u and friend. I know u will hard time it going to be ok.

Ur not the only one but I have ADD and short memory. I had that all my life. The one thing it had for me is remember things. I have to write it on note pads. Have a lot of those lol fell bad when my parents repreat over and over for me.

I always say to my self, make the best of what you have.
Its an amazing thing to be alive, to experience, to learn...no matter what you might not have.

im sure some days must suck, as we all have those days but thats why you have your close friends and family. they are all here for you! dont feel like you are a burden.

<3

i know it might not help much but my uncle is going through the same thing with his eye sight. he's semi blind the way it seems you are and has to get rides every where but cn function normally and can still see but not as hood as he use to. needs glasses which help but is still positive about things and though your "upset" at a young age i hope you keep your head held high and continue to think positive about things. there's a man out there for you and i think you'll be able to deal good with your eyes in the future

There's this "Save the boobs" campaign on Xanga...

This sparked 2 ideas in my head...
1. I have no boobs to save. So maybe I should make a "Save the boobs! Pass some down to me" campaign. But I am not sure how I would campaign for that, it just sounds stupid

2. Someone on Xanga decided that a "Save the penis" campaign would be good. I think so too. SAVE THE PENIS!!!!!!!! What are we saving the penis from though? Oh... I don't know... probably from itself. From getting too fat or something.. ha ha ha...

3. I could create some boobs by stuffing my bra, or take the expensive route.... which means buying out Panera bread's brownies and eating them all until some boobage appears. That might take forever and I don't have the patience to do that though.. And ugh imagine how sick I would get.
then you would get sick of hearing me complain about how sick I feel, and then I wouldn't even be happy with my extra boobage.

4. I LOVE YOU UNTIL THE END OF TIME.... which may or may not be December 21.

5. nelly-jamal-duong-joyce. Remember him? He remembers you.

P.S. You're my kind of superwoman.

Be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle. Plato. Thank you for sharing.

@xraindropsonroses - you are more than your boobs

@xdeelynnx - Thank you. That's nice to hear :) @irene25 - I know I'll be okay. It just gets to me sometimes. I have a little bit of short memory problems.. Not much, but I can somewhat understand you. Note pads are a good idea. Good something helps you!@miracletome - I try my best to live by that thought. Some days are just hard though, but you're right @ImNotYouOrMe - Oh well, thanks for sharing. I'm keeping my head up and staying positive. It was just a rough day today. @xraindropsonroses - I don't know what goes on in that head of yours, but I love you! @BenelliMan - Thanks, I like that.

Ahhh stupid Xanga. I had originally typed out this long comment, but it didn't go through. Girl, you will totally find someone that's perfect for you and who loves you for everything. Even after your accident, you've still been going on dates, meeting new guys, etc. And some have turned out to be really good. It just shows that there are more guys like that in the world. You will eventually get used to "seeing" through other ways, I guess through heightened senses? It all seems bad now, but you'll eventually reach the lowest, and from there, there's no way to go but up (: And until you reach that point, you still have your family and friends who care about you.

You make some excellent points. It is so true we all must just enjoy our lives to the fullest as you have said one day can change everything. We never even know when our lives will end either. It's definitely not a good idea to look back too much as absolutely nothing about the past can be change.

And from reading your blog over the last year and a bit I've read about all of the amazing progress you've made since your accident and sure I can imagine you get so frustrated at times, but you've done so well and I think it will just keep getting better.

Don't worry about the future either. You'll always have tons of friends and family that will love being there for you and helping you out when you need a little help. Not because it's a chore, but because they really enjoy doing it. And you'll find that special someone and get married and have a wonderful life together. I think you have a lot to look forward to !

Take care and have a great start to the week, bye for now.

Kyle

I am sorry for your struggles with partial blindness--it is disabling for sure. I don't know for sure how the blind cope in life, but I know there are centers for helping then blind cope with life--like reading braille, having an seeing eye dog, and maintaining a house. I am sure you will figure it out since so many deal with this.

I am just sorry you are so young and lost it due to an auto accident.

Wishing you the best,

frank

Jenny, you cannot give up at 22. You have the whole life to live and enjoy. There are so many institutions in so many states that help people who are visually impaired. Don't get into the self pity mode please.

*Hugs*

You seem to deserve this after what you went through!

Also, I hope you have a great time out this weekend ;) Get dressed up and go out and have fun XD

And thanks for your lovely comment dear! much love<3

@hilabpartnerxD - @Be_happy_Be_you - Thank you both. You girls are sweethearts and I love you two! :)

I think your friend was being pretty insensitive to be honest. While it may be true that you can not enjoy the fair in all the ways others can, that doesn't mean you can't enjoy yourself. Life has dealt you a cruel blow for sure, but that doesn't mean you can't enjoy yourself still.

Maybe it doesn't seem like it now, but you still have so much potential to do something amazing with your life. There is this reality cooking show called MasterChef that I enjoy watching. The most recent season is the first time I've watched it. On it they get home cooks who get to compete for $250,000 dollars, the publication of a cookbook, and the title of "MasterChef". The winner from the most recent season is a lovely lady from Houston, named Christine Ha. She was an amazing cook, but her story is even more intriguing, because she is blind. Christine lost her vision because of an autoimmune disease. In spite of her terrible situation, she's accomplished so much. Not only did she win MasterChef, but she is also a graduate student at the University of Houston!! In spite of her situation she has accomplished so much!!!

I think the fear of being alone is quite normal, when you don't have someone. So, one can only imagine how you feel in your situation. The good thing is, that you've been meeting a lot of guys, and have put yourself out there. You're a good girl, in fact you're a really good girl! I think you just have to keep your hopes up, and not give up on yourself. There are so many guys out there. There has to be someone that fits what you're looking for, and will love you for the gem that you are. I understand that being blind isn't a trait that guys are looking for in a girl, but I don't see why that has to be a deal breaker. Just because someone doesn't have any disabilities, does not automatically make them an attractive person. You are just as beautiful as any other girl out there, you just have to believe it. It's hard to believe in ourselves sometimes, I know. Especially when others don't acknowledge that we are special, but I think it starts with us. I think the more we believe in ourselves, the more it will attract others to us. And, do you remember Christine Ha? Well, she is married to a lovely man!! Even with vision problems, I am certain it is possible to find a great man for yourself. Just don't lose hope! Once you lose hope, everything is lost, but if you cling to even just a little ounce of hope, who knows what might happen???!!! =)

Jen, never lose sight of how special you are, and remember that it's okay to feel bad about all the struggles you're going through. Anyone would be facing a very difficult battle, if they were in your situation. Just remember that the past will always be what it is, but your future is a blank slate. I am certain even with your limitations that you can live a happy and productive life. Remember Christine Ha! If she can do amazing things, then who says you can't? You are capable of much more, then probably anyone realizes, and of that I am certain. You are a special girl with a sweet spirit, and a beautiful heart. One thing I love about you, is your desire to be loved. Not every girl out there is looking for real love. Some just want to use others, for all they can get out of them, and then dispose of them when the time is right. But, you are not that kind of person. I believe the man who becomes your future husband, will be ever thankful for having such a ruby like yourself. Yet, even now you are loved. Your family cares so much about you, and look at all the people who love you here on Xanga. We're some of your biggest fans, and will continue to support you, because we really do love you. We all want you to be happy, and that is my #1 wish for you. Your circumstances are so difficult, but try your best to make the most of what you do have. Be the lovely person you are, shine bright, and be an extraordinary inspiration to others. This world needs all the inspiration it can get, and there is no doubt you can provide a lot of it! I do love you my friend, and please keep fightin'! You're beautiful, and you always will be, regardless of what anyone else think or says. I'm sorry it's been awhile since I've commented on your blog, but I hope this comment makes up for it! Have a lovely Friday my friend, and keep shining bright, like the star that you are!! :)

I feel for you, Jen. Like Jon said, in a nutshell, Your limitations do not change who you are. They may change how you see, or get around, but they do not change the very person you are. I know that its easier said than done, but be thankful that you are alive =) I know that, despite you having limitations, I am glad that I met you on this site! You are amazing, and you have a light within you, that will never go away.
The future can be very scary, and quite depressing to think about, to be honest. Thats why though its good to set goals, however it's not good to worry about the future. I, myself have never dated and have friends that are getting engaged and even having children! Honestly, I too wonder if I will find somebody, however I take it as it is. My wish for you, is that if it is meant to happen, a guy will come along, who will love you for the wonderful person you are.
What that guy said, was out of line. Sometimes, when people are thinking something, it is best to keep quiet. He should never have said anything at all, and I hope he realized his mistake. I know that, if I was with somebody in your situation, I would have kept all negative comments private. Not that I would be judgmental in the first place, but if I had concerns, I wouldn't have worried about them.
Hang in there Jen, and continue to stay strong! That is good that, you haven't been crying as much. It shows you are healing =) Try to take things one day at a time :)

Sometimes, even as much as we don't want to remember the negative things, it just happens and you have every right to be upset about it sometimes. It's completely understandable that you get frustrated with it. No one should say anything to you if you want to take a day to just complain. Go for it. I'm sure there are a few people here that are willing to lend a listening ear. <3

@buddy71 - You're awesome! @kyle061685 - Thanks. You're always so encouraging. @ANVRSADDAY - I am in a blindness and visual service. They've helped me in many ways, one being how to use the computer. I see well enough not to need a walking dog. I should learn brail, but seeing that there are audio books and such, I don't care to learn even though I probably should. @ZSA_MD - I'm not giving up. I just had a few rough days. @summereque - Haha thanks.. I'll try to put together an outfit as cute as one of yours tomorrow night! @making_a_comeback_05 - Wow John, I really appreciate your comment. The story of Christine is inspiring. Gives me a little more faith that there is something out there that I can achieve. For everything else you said, thank you. You are an amazing person and friend. I'm lucky to have become friends with you! You're inspiring as well as your quotes of the days  :) and it is nice to have people who care about me here on xanga. Love you too! @Electrons_in_Hiatus_2009 - I''m so glad to have become friends with you as well, Mark! You and John are like 2 in 1 haha you both are so helpful and encouraging. Your comments make me think better of myself. Yes, the future is scary for everyone, so I shouldn't think I'm alone. I'll set goals and try to stop worrying. Thank you :) @ItsAll_A_LoveWar - Oh I've had more days of crying and complaining, and you're right, there are people here who listen! Haha thanks for being one of them love.

Keep your head up girl, your so beautiful && amazing, remember that! You are so much more than your "disabilities" and dont worry about love, it'll come when you least expect it. <3

@hes_a_tragedy_xo - Oh thank you sweetheart!

@jennylovve -  welcome! I am glad that, I can help you feel better! =)